January 2012

Sorry for the very late posting, let's begin.

The nicest thing today was ...

1) 01/01/2012 - watching the War Horse with many handsome blonde actors with bluish / greenish eyes. If only I can have a handsome blonde guy myself :P

2) 02/01/2012 - comfort food provided by Swensens, ended with coit tower with rum raisins and merry mint ice cream *hmmm*

3) 03/01/2012 - when Oshie said "hi" in gTalk and I got to talk to him about my ipod problem which has been bothering me. It's really good to have someone to talk to when I needed to talk to someone. Also, comfort food featuring Indonesian curry.

4) 04/01/2012 - when the noodle auntie in Lau Pa Sat straight away prepared my lunch upon seeing me at the stall without me having to say a word :)

5) 05/01/2012 - when I got my dinner and lunch, the aunties remembered how I like my order and I didn't have to say what I wanted. I just have to say yes / ya when they recited how I like my meals to be :)

6) 06/01/2012 - my iPod came back and it's all fixed. THANK YOU GOD!!!

7) 07/01/2012 - talking to Max and had him excitedly showed me some youtubes videos*.
* The videos weren't amusing for me.

8) 08/01/2012 - chocolate bar and it rained (though only a bit).

9) 09/01/2012 - the "okay" and ready to be relaxed feeling that I had while I was taking my shower.

10) 10/01/2012 - talking to mom.

11) 11/01/2012 - nothing is lost even though Max forgot to lock the door for the whole day.

12) 12/01/2012 - magnum gold ice cream*.
* It's S$3.95 though - I almost fainted paying it but it was from Germany and I just had a near-crying day.

13) 13/01/2012 - MODERN FAMILY. Oh how I heart them. Luke has grown so much during the break.

14) 14/01/2012 - when Mr. N said that one of my arguments was good and well thought off*.
* If there was a hint of sarcasm, I didn't notice it. So maybe it's for real :P

15) 15/01/2012 - the long talk with mom.

16) 16/01/2012 - surviving dinner with PET*.
* I was nervous about all of them speaking in chinese, but overall it was good.

17) 17/01/2012 - Reese butter cups :)

18) 18/01/2012 - GLEE. It made me cry and how I love Sam and Mercedes. Also, the uncle who sold me my green tea today made me laugh when he said, "but inside the can, it's not green". I was puzzled. He said, "it's yellow". I laughed :D

19) 19/01/2012 - being in Jakarta, looking up at the sky and seeing many stars, they felt so near and yet so far. Also my bed!!! This is home!

20) 20/01/2012 - watching The Iron Lady at Taman Anggrek Mall's nice almost empty cinema with a nice seat and then meeting the girls (Yen Lisa & Dewi).

21) 21/01/2012 - being home, away from Singapore. Also my bed!!!

22) 22/01/2012 - surviving the Chinese New Year's eve ritual in my family. Mom worked a lot. I didn't really.

23) 23/01/2012 - surviving Chinese New Year and meeting a particular "funny" aunt*.
* She said things like, "when Eka? when?". I said, "when what?". She said, "when are you going to get married? We are ready to fly to Singapore". Well auntie, I hope for other things :P

24) 24/01/2012 - the abundance of fruits in my house and mom peeled and cut them for us. Also Opera Van Java - It's hilarious!!!

25) 25/01/2012 - arriving at our destinations (uncle's new house and my house) after braving Jakarta's traffic.

26) 26/01/2012 - the girl talk with the girls. It was pretty mind opening :P

27) 27/01/2012 - spending time with mom - Using the busway (my first time), visiting the temple, and shopping for some supply things.

28) 28/01/2012 - being at home and getting a few laughters from the tv.

29) 29/01/2012 - mom telling me to take time to relax.

30) 30/01/2012 - KFC chicken, hug and kisses from mom.

31) 31/01/2012 - when a lady asked me to stand under her umbrella as I was waiting for the green light to cross the street and the rain was getting heavier and all I had was newspaper. God bless that lady!

It's Going Down...

Today, a boy said "F you". Not to my face but was directed to me. Well, I'm so sure he didn't mean to hide it, I mean if he wants to be discreet then he shouldn't have said it loudly, right? He and his friend laughed. I think they also called me bitch.

Hmmm...what can I say, the class was chaotic and blame it on the teacher in charge. However, kids these days are just...

The 12 year old me will understand. I still do actually, a bit. I do say things like "porca miseria" a lot, however I will know where and when not to say it. One must control right? So a 12-year-old boy doesn't know this kinda thing?

I don't know what to say. Have been speechless for days. Anyway, the point of this blog is just to tell you what happen, no conclusion, no objective.

Primary Kids

I am sitting here, waiting for the next batch of little girls to come in. Oh primary kids. The word kids is seriously for them. Short and supposedly sweet but oH how they can make your blood pressure rise. Not that they are bad and naughty. They are little girls and little girls are made of sugar and spice and everything nice, right???

They just...

...don't really know how to move the mouse, or type in the keyboard, or know where the keys are for that matter. They just like to run around and I don't know why, they do not do things when I shouted it for so many times. I can not really blame them. I mean, can I? How can you blame someone for not knowing how to use the mouse? Or type? Hello...they can't even spell some of the words yet.

At the end of the day or lesson in this case, all I need is time. Time...please don't rush me because I AM frustrated. But...there's a but...but maybe I should just not care. This is the one and only time...until then...which most probably never.

Apparently, Eka Rocks! ;)

Today was the last session of this particular class which I didn't know why, was kinda intimidating for me. I like to put the blame on the boy with the attitude problem (the Dick) who still didn't change his attitude despite of this being the last chance for him to put something new into his head. Not only him, some of the other students were also as bad. Came late and yet didn't do anything. One would expect an apology or excuse but nothing and so they just left without anything either. Intimidating for me because on normal case I would like to shout at them but I found myself not being able to do so and honestly a bit scared approaching them. I suppose I feel that if they were going to be rude to me, I don't know if I could still stand straight and not cry. Anyway, I suppose I shouldn't bother, I wasn't the one in charge anyway. But I suppose, if it had been me, things would be different. I have difficulty saying it would have been different in a good way since the kids really do have attitude problems.

Still, today is still quite a treat because I get to see Sean and Scott again. Last time...for the last time. Sean is cute and ever polite. One really fall for this kid, small, soft-spoken, and really ever-polite! Scott, man oH man. I didn't come for the last 2 sessions, so I didn't get the chance to see him. I didn't see him for around 3 weeks I think and he has grown so TALL. So much taller than me, SO MUCH! Love him. Not as well-behaved as Sean but charmed me more than Sean did. Nice boy, really nice, hardworking. I really think it was him that wrote Eka rocks! ;) Even if it wasn't him, I was already flying when he said that I was great, better than a certain someone. Love you Scott, thank you. On other kids, well, in the end, didn't really connect to them all. Cecilia was kinda in a distance, somehow I felt she was also in a distance with the rest of her "normal gank". Aaron was cute and funny, but still lazy. Valerie was funny. Apparently they all think Snape is evil :( At least, Scott can see that he made the unbreakable vow :P Well okay, must get back and put voice into the alien. A sad ending again, gonna miss them :s

Last Shout

So, today, all those months, weeks, and hours come to an end. Last meeting always make me slightly sad no matter what. Today was no exception. After all the shouting and threats and all the crazy time, I ended up wanting to say "I'm gonna miss you!". I actually gonna miss you all. I will miss Shaun (despite of him being the way he is). I'm gonna miss Andre who can not stop calling me Miss Eka. Then Gordon, who I gave a B. I almost gave him an A, but then I ended up giving him a B. Today, he was so sweet that I feel rather guilty for the B, but it was a B work. Oh Gordon, I do believe you are a nicer boy compared to the others, you were just in the wrong place at the wrong time. Gonna miss you dearly. There were others who I can not really remember, there were Marcus, Derrick, Winfield, and so many others. Gonna miss you boys, truly. It had been a crazy ride with you. Thank you for the thank you.

I Finally Crack

When I was in Junior High School (secondary school), there was this one math teacher, who actually cried because the class was too much for her. Of course, she wasn't sobbing but she would shed some tears, which actually I never saw, my friends just told me she cried. At that time, I thought she was kinda a cry-baby.

Today, finally a boy managed to make me shed some tears. Luckily not in the class, I could still compose myself then. But afterwards, I did so-called cry. I guess, given better time and place, I would have sobbed more. Really felt like having a good cry.

The thing was, under the circumstances, I supposed to feel angry but instead I felt sad. I don't understand why. In a way, I even felt guilty. Even so, I'm pretty sure the boy wouldn't appreciate how I feel. Such a diva attitude. I don't know why the school allows the kids to have such a diva-ish attitude. Come on, you may end up becoming nothing (though I hope not).

After analyzing it more, I guess I felt sad because when this boy walked out, I knew that I couldn't reach him and he is lost forever. Some kids can say stupid things but we can still make a connection and they will in a way listen, but this boy...I couldn't give you anything. First post shouldn't be this sad :'(

Eka

I couldn't believe this wasn't taken yet. Still thinking what to do with it. Cheerio Folks!