As the end of 2011 was approaching, I was thinking of stuff (as many people perhaps did) and of course the question of new year's resolution made its way into my head. I am not one who ever did that. I don't understand the need for it - If you wanna do something, just do it. However as the days were ending, a thought came that I should list all the nice things that happened in each of my days in 2012. It first came to me that I should tweet it everyday or put it in my Facebook status - show a little positivity to the world. Then I realized, I might be in places where I'll have no internet access. So I bought a thin cute book to list everything and I decided I would blog it at the end of each month. That somewhat became my new year's resolution. As not interesting as it may sound, I thought it would be a good practice to dig deep into my shitty days (which I am sure will exist) and see something, anything, at least one thing nice that happened that day. So if these entries are boring, I'm sorry (I'm sorry too if I'm tardy in posting). For some people, they may put things like got married, saw my baby for the first time, got proposed, etc. If it's me, perhaps the nicest thing was a chocolate bar, but then perhaps you can sense how sucky my day was that a chocolate bar was the nicest thing that happened to me :) Some days the nicest things will send me grinning from the inside, some days they will just stop me from crying, but those are my life in 2012, I suppose :)
PS: I did use this blog to talk about stuff long ago. I decided not to delete the entries. To read a more sobering view of my life, you can go here.

Wednesday, November 16, 2005

Apparently, Eka Rocks! ;)

Today was the last session of this particular class which I didn't know why, was kinda intimidating for me. I like to put the blame on the boy with the attitude problem (the Dick) who still didn't change his attitude despite of this being the last chance for him to put something new into his head. Not only him, some of the other students were also as bad. Came late and yet didn't do anything. One would expect an apology or excuse but nothing and so they just left without anything either. Intimidating for me because on normal case I would like to shout at them but I found myself not being able to do so and honestly a bit scared approaching them. I suppose I feel that if they were going to be rude to me, I don't know if I could still stand straight and not cry. Anyway, I suppose I shouldn't bother, I wasn't the one in charge anyway. But I suppose, if it had been me, things would be different. I have difficulty saying it would have been different in a good way since the kids really do have attitude problems.

Still, today is still quite a treat because I get to see Sean and Scott again. Last time...for the last time. Sean is cute and ever polite. One really fall for this kid, small, soft-spoken, and really ever-polite! Scott, man oH man. I didn't come for the last 2 sessions, so I didn't get the chance to see him. I didn't see him for around 3 weeks I think and he has grown so TALL. So much taller than me, SO MUCH! Love him. Not as well-behaved as Sean but charmed me more than Sean did. Nice boy, really nice, hardworking. I really think it was him that wrote Eka rocks! ;) Even if it wasn't him, I was already flying when he said that I was great, better than a certain someone. Love you Scott, thank you. On other kids, well, in the end, didn't really connect to them all. Cecilia was kinda in a distance, somehow I felt she was also in a distance with the rest of her "normal gank". Aaron was cute and funny, but still lazy. Valerie was funny. Apparently they all think Snape is evil :( At least, Scott can see that he made the unbreakable vow :P Well okay, must get back and put voice into the alien. A sad ending again, gonna miss them :s

Wednesday, November 09, 2005

Last Shout

So, today, all those months, weeks, and hours come to an end. Last meeting always make me slightly sad no matter what. Today was no exception. After all the shouting and threats and all the crazy time, I ended up wanting to say "I'm gonna miss you!". I actually gonna miss you all. I will miss Shaun (despite of him being the way he is). I'm gonna miss Andre who can not stop calling me Miss Eka. Then Gordon, who I gave a B. I almost gave him an A, but then I ended up giving him a B. Today, he was so sweet that I feel rather guilty for the B, but it was a B work. Oh Gordon, I do believe you are a nicer boy compared to the others, you were just in the wrong place at the wrong time. Gonna miss you dearly. There were others who I can not really remember, there were Marcus, Derrick, Winfield, and so many others. Gonna miss you boys, truly. It had been a crazy ride with you. Thank you for the thank you.

Wednesday, October 05, 2005

I Finally Crack

When I was in Junior High School (secondary school), there was this one math teacher, who actually cried because the class was too much for her. Of course, she wasn't sobbing but she would shed some tears, which actually I never saw, my friends just told me she cried. At that time, I thought she was kinda a cry-baby.

Today, finally a boy managed to make me shed some tears. Luckily not in the class, I could still compose myself then. But afterwards, I did so-called cry. I guess, given better time and place, I would have sobbed more. Really felt like having a good cry.

The thing was, under the circumstances, I supposed to feel angry but instead I felt sad. I don't understand why. In a way, I even felt guilty. Even so, I'm pretty sure the boy wouldn't appreciate how I feel. Such a diva attitude. I don't know why the school allows the kids to have such a diva-ish attitude. Come on, you may end up becoming nothing (though I hope not).

After analyzing it more, I guess I felt sad because when this boy walked out, I knew that I couldn't reach him and he is lost forever. Some kids can say stupid things but we can still make a connection and they will in a way listen, but this boy...I couldn't give you anything. First post shouldn't be this sad :'(

Saturday, October 01, 2005

Eka

I couldn't believe this wasn't taken yet. Still thinking what to do with it. Cheerio Folks!